@ 19 Days

Locs :)

Hmmmmmm well it is now day 21 or 22 but yeah. I've been slacking off lately cause of not waxing. And I'm seeing lots of people on campus and around the streets with locs. It makes me so jealous to see the mature ones! Damnit I just can't wait for mine to get long and all lovely! It'd come in good time I know :) Lately, there's not much inspiration for me to do anything really. Especially with all the work for school and other kind of administrative stuff.

But i did see Alice in Wonderland! It was good. Not great, but good. I would recommend it but I'm not hugely excited about it, seeing as it was fairly mediocre. I'm not trying to bash on it or make it seem like it sucked, cause it didn't. Its good for aesthetic entertainment, but otherwise I don't see the big deal and hype about it. Guess its been overrated.

Fuck haters!

Dealing with hate and incompetence. Boy what a touchy subject! But hey, we all have to deal with it at some point in our lives. I know I definately have. I tend to get depressed easily and especially sensitive to those kinda things. Its not a nice road to trot on I can tell you that! Anyways, just a random thought I need to take note of.

Why I want and now have "locs"

Got them on the 27th of Feb 2010. That's how they looked on the day I got them. They're really fuzzy.

There's several reasons for wanting to get locs:

1. The way they look. I absolutely adore the fact that they've given my hair life! (If its not too much to put it like that) I mean I look at them and compare to when I had normal hair and I notice such a difference that it makes. My hope is that it doesn't change my personality too much or too drastically.

2. Cultural bond to Jamaican roots. Come on. Like really. Come on! I can't simply ignore the fact I'm uncommonly the product of such a lively interesting country. The locs just "represent" if I may say so.

3. They deny the stereotype. Helps me to overcome dbag ignorant aholes who don't know any betta and waan come up to me tell me bout ching chong foolishness. Its a early thing that I've taken with me into adulthood and i suppose that i haven't quite let go of it. So I've decided that they're a good way of helping being a unique individual and finding my true self. Its a complicated issue but its an ongoing search I think others also take on. The locs (I won't call them dreads because to rastas "dread" translates into to fear the Lord) are a way for me to mix up my culture a bit. I like how its like I'm a walking contradiction because I can be on the streets and traditional asian people can look at me and turn heads and be like 'wtf' hahahaha. Anyways yeah it's kinda hard to explain. I want to look like I have a respect for culture basically. Take it how you want

I'm well-aware I'm racist towards certain groups and individuals. Just to clarify.

A likkle rant

1. Why do people not want to separate their garbage when they recycle?!?!?! Especially when they can separate it in a room where it is basically laid out for them: Glass, Plastics, Cardboard, Newspapers + Clippings etc. I honestly don't see the reason why I have to encounter a Macdonalds cup in the glass section, when the paper/garbage section is in the same room. It just doesn't amaze me how lazy people can get, even with the most easy and unavoidable things.
2. Leaving the light on. Is it that hard to just turn it off whenever you don't use it? Admittedly, I personally do this at times but I've noticed that people do it because they're lazy. Here's another example of how people being unaware about energy consumption and the environment behave. But who cares anyways? Not many people, at least in my opinion.
3. "Green" everything! It has been becoming a recent fad that people use the label green to mean its something good, and may contribute to the welfare of the environment. I however see it as another marketing scam. Do you honestly have to believe everything people say nowadays?

Things on my mind

So theres been alot going on in my life at this point, and I'm finding it fairly hard to cope with so I suppose that blogging might help be therapeutic in some way. I'm tired as I write this, but theres some things I should get off my chest. First of all has to do with prejudices and stereotypes. Is there seriously no better way for people to cope with their discomforts? I mean I can understand that people's bad experiences with others of a particular group could negatively influence their perceptions, but is it really necessary to have things like hate crimes and racism in the world? How hard is it for anyone to just accept things as it? I'm sure the majority of people do but it bothers me lately how the way people formulate their beliefs can have an affect on the person they try to disciminate and isolate... Anyways thinking of it in that way makes you depressed so I'm not even going there.

Another thing on my mind is figuring out what to do with my life. Lately I've been torn between taking up a part-time on-campus, maybe fast food job or pursuing a Certificate in community arts. Its hard for me because of there requires so much more work in doing art and learning about it. But to be honest I can't say I'm not enthusiatic about art and all the things I'm willing to give up in order to fully engage in it. I hope to maybe travel to be inspired, and experience different cultures, I hope to also be able to help others through art, help them to learn. Help people is essentially a thing I've always wanted to do but never got around to. Also I want to feel more self-satisfied with life. What is there to life if you aren't happy with your career right?

So I've noticed my blog is really under the weather nowadays due to Reading Week and being in Indiana for a while. But it wasn't a waste at all. It was good times and spent well rested. Plus my gut was full like ALLL de effing time! Oh wells! I suppose thats all I need to get out there right now. Will blog soon. :)

Why?

A commonly asked question. A difficult one and a somewhat complex one. This is what I asked myself all the time, and this is what I wish to examine in my studies. i.e. why am i studying what i'm studying?

I believe envs is a field, even though thoroughly new at the moment, that relates or involves to everyone. IN some senses, it even benefits and harms some. All in all though, it seems like the right thing to do when our current world situation is in such a spiral and in this confused and complex state. I suppose it could also be the fact that I had been troubling transitioning into university and in choosing a major (even though I had chosen Com Sci).

Well, in all honestly, it's a great field to have the privilege of studying. But sometimes I question why? "Why?" not just in why i study, but why also in other aspects.

A note to self and anyone interested

Hi

So I've come to the conclusion that: life is about sacrifices and hardships. It is about bearing these things in order to obtain happiness. Lately I guess, nothing's really been going in my life. General things like being busy and being more social I guess. Its all apart of everyday living. Don't really know what else to say other than that I lost my train of thought while multi-tasking. Just needed to update this with the new year and all. I have so many plans. Its ridiculous. Tomorrows agenda is like make appo with advisor, go to the bank, call other bank, call cell phone company, and call the driving centre near here. But yes. That is that and I suppose I will end this blog for tonight/this morning.