I haven't posted in a long time

So I've been on summer break kinda (its spring but I have summer school so this is my summer break) Anyway I been thinking of my life and so far everything been's going pretty well for me.

For one lately I'm playing video games since I bought a PS3 and I've been playing this game called Eternal Sonata. I dont have much experience playing video games but I do like this one, it is a tad hard for me and my very bad reaction time since that is what is quite important in this game @_@ damn you guard! I also played F.E.A.R. 2. that one sucked, its a good thing it was only 15 bucks. I don't like first person shooters. I guess playing FPS was just me trying to convince myself I could actually be one of those skilled shooting game peoples and defeat the stereotype of girlie girl gaming. Also I played Heavy Rain. Honestly I liked the whole idea around the gameplay, its relaxing to me but the story itself isn't all that and that's pretty all it was based on.
 
So lately I've been really into this cosmetics company Lush. I think its really cool they try to be environmentally friendly. But honestly how is it good to encourage people to take baths when so much of the world is in water shortage? Sigh. I wish we could so easily solve all our world's problems probably through the use of magic or infinite resources and funds but sadly, it's not like that.


Oh and I've also been into painting my nails all the time and nail polish. Oh I've so much of that! The beloved (hehe) made me a wonderful box to put them all in. It's so cute that I may just post a picture of it for you hehe. I've got on China Glaze Dorothy Who? A bright blue glitterie polish with blue and silver glitter i love it though I'm not a huge fan of glitter. I do like the look of it on nails! I also love looking at nail blogs heehee

Things I want to clarify

Do I ever feel any slight hatred or resent for people who marry within their race? Yes I do

Would I marry inside my race? No i wont.

How do I feel about marriage outside ones race? I have nothing against it.

Would I go against my parents wishes and date outside my race? Yes I would and have

Will people ever get over the fact that there is nothing wrong with ppl of outside race? I hope they do...

I dont think people should be restricted from choice of a life mate y'know...

Reality likes to kick people in the ass.

Its true. This ties into all I've blogged about before, in terms of being slaves of society, stereotyping, lame-ass movies. Whatever. It all ties together. It may seem like i'm the pessimistic, "cup is half empty" kinda person, but really I'm sure we all can agree that they've had those days where it feels like you're living in a system. You see, we all are apart of a so called system. A cruel and pityless system, where all is lost, but its sometimes found. Where we care sometimes and then get bored and change our minds. I know I seem like I'm rambling, and I'm not even specifying or trying to prove a point. But think of what's going on around you. Think of the world and its people as a whole. Why do people have to do this or have this happen? Despite that in the end, it's all for naught. What's the point in trying to live your life when you're all gonna die anyway? Wow getting philosophical here.

What I'm trying to say is learn from everything. Take shit in, and think. Use your effing minds to see what's happening. I don't think anythings wrong with having an opinion. It is a free speech world after all. At least so I think.

So I've got to write an essay I thought this would be a good way to get into the mindset and kickstart me. Well hopefully.

Paranormal Activity Review

"Sucess is not the key to happiness. Happiness is the key to success" by Albert Schweitzer

A friend gave me this before she left the country. Miss her, and really like the note

So Paranormal(fucking) Activity. Man what an overhyped film. To be honest I liked the suspense and tension bit of it but otherwise I think it fucking sucks. I mean the fucking alarm going off scared me while I watched this movie. However I could not find it in me to be interested to find out what happened in the end, so instead i went to look up the ending rather than finish watch. I mean I like ghosts movies. Poltergeist was effing awesome and de shit. But this? Ummm not so much. It basically had all the teeny little generic ghost scares - slamming doors, dark hallways, sleepwalking, "unidentified presences" and whatnot and throw in two fucking unbearable actors to play main roles. I fucking wanted that bitch to die. Turns out she doesn't, w/e. Also the fact that it was the first person camera kinda movie also make it a little harder to make the horror movie right. But actually it seemed to work pretty well for this story. Oh by the way, the story is effin shit. I'm not even going to get into too much detail but its basically ghost haunts girl and b/f is concerned. Lame huh? Anyways yeah I actually liked the filming style or camera style or whatever it is. It also worked really well in Diary of the Dead and REC. REC was fucking awesome by the way.

Maybe my experience of this movie was tainted because of the annoying porn ad in the corner of my comp. It took away from the thrill/scare factor I guess. I think I would've liked it more had I seen it on full-screen

Bleh

It efffin sucks when you have to write for someone you disliek.

Wow I realise that now the whole dilemma and conspiracy with Wal-Mart nowadays could really be a possibility in my hometown Ochi and affect my parents. This would happen if like a super-plus were to be built. I'm watching the movie high cost of low prices and this also happened to this other store, which sold hardware. They were put out of business because Wal-mart built in their town ):

Procrastinate like a bish

Hello blogging world out there. There's not much to update, except I've gotten lazier and lazier as time passes by and even less capable of completing assignments. Anyways there's this paper about Wal-mart campaigns that's in progress which will hopefully determine my passing mark in this course. READ hopefully! But yeah all is fine in this part of my world. There's little to really be excited about except the fact that I'm in a permanently pissed off mood at everything. Aren't we all nowadays? Whatever.

I like writing blogs. It's so simple yet its so effective. But then again, it's also really fun! Wow I should really put my energy and abilities in my paper more huh? Sigh I know I should.

Rhetorical questions ftw.

Oh and here's a little rant for you

Why the hell people want to push them beliefs on you huh? Why do you wanna be like oh you should be into this and not into that? And you aren't even harming them or society in general. W.T.F!!! Like why? Seriously why? Cause me well waan know ya man. It just no mek so sense. Cho bbc. oh well, my lesson is learned.Still fucking piss me off though. Dem no have no regard for difference and no understanding for others' feelings. It just not acceptable in my book especially if I were to consider you a fucking friend. I don't give a shit about your religion by the way :D

Contradictions

I guess no one likes to think that they live in a life full of contradictions. But its so true. Theres little room to doubt this. At least I know it personally that I contradict myself even if it's unconsciously its always there. I could say I hate people who party and don't want to bitch about it. But just saying all of that is a contradiction in that I do bitch about it by saying I hate those people. Maybe its a bad example but you can get the general idea.

I dunno I may be way too self conscious for my own good. But I'm sure there's so many other ways I contradict myself. For example, taking environmental studies and not buying coffee in a reuseable tumbler all the time or like not making use of the one I have, which I don't carry around with me, cause I'm lazy. Also I don't limit my spending on clothes. There's a big thing about consumerism in the current day and in environmental studies. But I don't budget myself really when I go shopping I just buy whatever I like. I also buy from Wal-Mart and Gap and Old-Navy, ummm American Eagle, H&M etc all those stores but don't mind what people tell me about the sweat shops. Also I honestly think I'm too careless when it comes to recyclables. I buy up so much plastic bottles whenever I want to drink something its ridiculous how much I accumulate after a week. Anyways. I guess all I'm saying is that learn to accept your flaws, your contradictions, learn to be wary of them and not to take them to heart. At least not in a terribly harsh manner. Don't feel like you have to be bashed on because of anything. I really don't see the use in that.

Well after thinking a while, I think I may be skipping out on an exam on Monday in order to do other work. There is so much to do around this time it's ridiculous especially writing fucking papers, which SUCK. sigh, I'm going to fail it anyway.